The Windows Live Writer makes life much easier. I finally feel my mind is free from a lots of anxieties and burden recently. From the time we got married and until now, there has been a constant struggle in my mind and heart in being obedient to God.
One thing I definitely lack is a spiritual discipline. I feel this is another time of stretching in my heart to overcome the things that I am still struggling with. Sometimes, I am tempted to think that God is not strong enough to bring me out this situation because all the while I am just looking at my strength and not HIS.
“My grace is sufficient for you” has been the verse of continuous encouragement in all the failures and confusion and constant attacks on mind and character. Work is taking too much time that I am feeling I have so little time to spend with family and church. Friday’s Bible study at our home has been going very good and keep us in constant fellowship we need.
Spiritually, I am just longing to spend time with God’s word but lacking discipline as well as the things of the world are chocking in producing fruits. Oh! God help me! I long to see the power of prayer and obedience but it is just a tough fight.
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Recently, I have felt God has increased my strength to overcome many temptations. It is not that easy to fast anymore. The words that deeply hurt me come back often and taunt me. I would like to forgive but it just opens my wounds and puts some fire over it.
Today, Jasmine, Jonathan and I went for a walk. The temperature has just gone over 60s. Pittsburgh weather is very volatile. But, the songs of God are coming back to my heart. This is an answered prayer as I used to sing all the time. But, the songs left once I started focusing on problems and as God stretched me. But, I prayed that God will fill my heart with songs for Him and He is quietly answering.
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